New Job and another new job!!
Joining from a big company to a small company, IS NEVER EASY.
It is endless fighting over independence, rules, power wars, disturbing cat fights. Etc etc. Tears come and so do the Ahha! Moments. The changes do seem weird and take time adjusting too. You have your own egos and self respects.
Then when you are sitting in the office and get a call from a better place, then where is the joke? The joke’s on the idiots who thought you needed to be kept in place. Really what is wrong.
One day when reading a story, you read about the American baby calling a sweater a hopper, it all fits on.
Get it? A sweater is called a jumper in England, Americans call it a sweater. How will a poor American baby know this, so she calls it a hopper!!!
You read this and realize, hopping, jumping it is all the same. The perception is different.
Thats is how you release the irritation holding you back and making you cry and helps you see. You had a big company perception, small company perception was too small for you.